Friday, April 30, 2010

Homesick

This last week has been really rough. It made me homesick. The most I’ve been since I’ve been stuck here, all year.

I’ve dug a hole bigger than myself, and now I’m trapped. I want to get out of this place!

I was fortunate enough to have my parents come pick me up Sabbath afternoon, take me out for lunch and then walk around Riverfront Park. It was a great day, but it ended too soon and I dreaded coming back.

It’s gross, gloomy, and grimy in this scary, dark, depressing place.

I don’t want to be here today. I hate the attitude I have. I want to enjoy every second of life but I can’t force myself out of this rut I’ve found myself stuck in.

I’m a mess. Dirty, sticky, tired, lonely… sick.

I just want to go home.

4/19/10

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