Wednesday, June 29, 2011


"You're blessed when you're at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and His rule. You're blessed when you feel you've lost what is most dear to you. Only then can you be embraced by the One most dear to you."
-Matthew 5: 3,4

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

time for a new adventure

Picture painted by River Davis (Perfect glimpse of this week at camp)

"Teacher! When are we leaving?!"
"Teacher! Why can't we go through line!!!??"
"Teacher, I don't want to drink water!"
"I am NOT going canoeing!"
"I AM PUTTING ON MY SHOES!"
"I want to go swimming in the POOL!"
"TAKE ME TO THE STORE!"

Ahhhhhhhhh! What do you do with a kid like THAT?! Can you say, AT-TI-TUDE! Sheesh! She wears me out! The first day I wasn't sure I would be able to make it through this summer, but as the days go on, I find that I like my job more and more. I can't believe they pay me to do this! Swim, play on water toys, run around, canoe, make candles, mountain bike, sleep under the stars, zip line, bake, sea wasp, tan, dance like we're back in the 50's, camp out, worship on the dock, hot tub, boat rides, 3 hour breaks for nap time and normal conversations with friends, can summer get any better? Compared to Silverwood last year, this is a dream! And next week it gets even better! It's not little adventurers anymore, it's teens. I'm only 17, technically not old enough to be a counselor, but yahoo! I'll make new friends easily next week! It'll be a party in the sun! Can't wait for a totally new adventure!

Friday, June 17, 2011

Adventurers!

I can't wait to feel like a little kid again with my campers! Adventurers show up on Sunday and I'm so excited and a little bit scared. What if someone wets the bed? What if they throw up? What if they talk back? What if they hate me? What if they don't get along? What if I lose them? What if they can't sleep? What if they're homesick? What if they wear me out!? What if they cry? What if they don't want to listen? What if they're sick? What if they start asking "God questions"? What if they get too curious? What if they always want to know more? What if I don't have answers?
But it's Adventure week! How hard could it be right?

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

To a Dear Friend,


I missed you today friend. Whenever I drive somewhere, and I see the next speed limit sign, I think of you as I race to reach the speed it says before I pass the sign. I thought of you when I went out to lunch today and how you spend ALL your money on food. I thought of you when I went shopping and saw those onsie jumpers... remember trying one on everywhere we went?! I thought of you when I looked at my paint-worn toes and how I sat in the nail place waiting for you and Cassie to finish with your manicure.

I don't want to say goodbye. Not yet. Not now. At the airport, when we tried to do our handshake one last time despite the tears, and we couldn't make it to the end, I thought my heart was breaking. It was seriously one of the saddest times in my life. And I know I'll see you again one day, 'cause you're just like that. You say something and you stick to it. I'm counting on that promise! I miss you friend!

Thank you for driving (or not driving) Cassie and I to get coffee at spangle foods so we could take it to Bible and end up with it in the bathroom instead of in the classroom (thank you Willis). Thank you for marching with me junior year and sitting next to me when we graduated. Thank you for, without fail, coming up to my hall every night just to hang out, and help me get nothing done. Thank you for making me all different kinds of Korean food, and making that rice patty soup as a late night snack whenever Syd and I was hungry. Thank you for attempting to help me look for a good senior rec song... it's the thought that counts. Thank you for "playing" spy's with me all year, and "flushing" things (code word) and specifically that one night where we dressed in all black and waited until late in the night to go on our mission. Thank you for not being afriad to pull pranks on all the girls in the girls dorm, (that silly lotion got me twice!). Thank you for playing twister out on the middle of the road with me and climbing a random tractor. Thank you for teaching me new "Poster" moves, and encouraging me, sharing in my frustration, and reading my mind on the court. Thank you for not being too embarassed to do our secret handshake in public. Thank you for riding your bike into Spangle foods during lunch to get snacks. Thank you for staying in my room with Polish or Sunwoo, or just you. Thank you for helping me study late into the night. Thank you for listening to me vent and get angry, and almost cry about nothing. Thank you for helping pay for my grad dress, and contributing to the "Karalee's new jacket" fund. Thank you for my favorite ice cream. Thank you for laughing at my not so funny jokes. Thank you for sleeping in random places with me (or wishing we could) and getting laughed at by Dean T when we slept in her office. Thank you for driving me so I could feel what it was like to stick my head out of the sun roof. Thank you for teaching me (or trying to teach me) the song, "I DON'T CAAAAARE! I DON'T CAAAARE!" and not being afraid to sing it at the top of your lungs and do the finger wag. Thank you for helping me with yucky Econ. Thank you for letting me make the lemonade at all of our homemade dinners. Thank you for being so easy to relate to and understanding where I'm coming from all the time, we really do have a mental connection! jjjjiiitttt!!! Thank you for being my Asian buddy. Thank you for going to Starbucks with Cassie, Anisha, Pastor Fred and I and helping wash his car. Thank you for watching movies late with the R.A.'s in the lobby. Thank you for going on the Sabbath afternoon expedition to feed the hungry and teaching me an incredibly important life lesson. Thank you for watching Jaws with me and eating pineapples... Thank you for talking super loud on the bus when you have headphones on, 'cause it cracks me up, remember? "If our senior bus flipped we would be a melting pot... with some ginger spice!" Thanks for trying on funny clothes in the dress up room with me. Thanks for teaching me good come-backs, like the "You're pretty...ugly" one. Thank you for not falling off that crazy four-wheeler ride through the trees, maybe some time soon I can take you to the trails. Thank you for being a gangsta triplet with me for spirit week. Thank you for writing something random about vitamin C's in my year book. Thank you for being my compatability friend on facebook by 99%. Thank you for going rollerblading with me at Riverfront Park. Thank you for inviting me to your babtism, and making me cry when I saw you cry, I'm so happy for you! Thank you for being the sort of friend that actually follows through with my crazy ideas. Thank you for being one of my best friends.
Sarangheh!

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

WOOOOHOOOO!

WE DID IT! 12 years of hard work has finally paid off! Walking across that stage to get my diploma didn't exactly feel the way I expected, but it was pretty sweet none-the-less. I love my Senior class! Wish we didn't have to go our seperate ways! I hate saying goodbyes, and to think nothing will ever be the same! Thank you friends for teaching me so many life lessons, for listening, for caring, for inspiring, for praying, and for loving. You've given me the best year of my life! I will never forget it!

Amazing Grace

Remember that day I felt like a super star? This is why.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Put So Perfectly

"I haven't given up. I just don't understand, and I'm desperate.
Desperate for a reason to believe again."
-Heather Bohlender (from her book "Honestly, I'm Struggling")

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Blessed with the BEST!

I just got back from my senior class trip and it was pretty incredible. Monday, one of my favorite days, started out with a disappointing burned omlet that no one ate except Anisha. But the second one we made was incredible, so we all split it.We went into town to shop at noon and our first stop was REI and Helly Hanson to get Lianne a nice black jacket. We'll just say I wasn't so much in the mood to shop. So then we went out to eat at Cafe' Yum. It was like this mix of ethnic foods in a bowl, Asian, Mexican, American, kind of like a haystack... It was good! So then we walked to White & Black and I tried on a million and one dresses, and I found the PERFECT one for graduation! Unfortunately it was a million and one dollars! So we walked to another store and tried on a few more dresses.Somehow my friends got me to walk back into White & Black where Lianne was trying on shoes for her graduation dress... and then they surprised me. As their graduation present to me they were going to help me pay for the dress. So I gave up all of the sixty two dollars in my wallet and walked out of that store beaming. I just LOVE my friends. We walked to Ben and Jerry's but I was out of money 'cause I'd just spent it all. So Anisha and I sat down at a table to wait and what do you know, they brought me back a couple scoops of my absolute favorite, Double Chocolate Brownie ice cream. YES! Could this day get any better?
YES! They whipped out the jacket Lianne had bought from REI this morning and handed it to me. What the heck?! They told me it was actually for me. I was SO confused! Then they wanted me to try it on. So I took off the old black jacket I had on, and handed it over for them to hold onto while I tried on the new jacket. Bad idea. They took it and laughed, saying they really wanted to burn it, but it would be bad for the environment, so to my astonishment they threw it in the trash! What friends! I was completely shocked to say the least. What? My mouth was wide open... they all just laughed at me, said they were good friends and they were doing me a favor. Apparently that jacket was:
#1 hidious
#2 collected enough hair to make a wig
#3 fuzzy with a pink inside... too much like a grandma

Oh friends! I have the best of them!